Grateful!

Today I thought I would just jot down a few things that I was thinking about while at church. First, I want to say how grateful I am for the gospel in my life. When I go to church I feel the spirit so strong, and feel rejuvenated and ready to take on the upcoming week, and whatever it may hold for me. This Sunday I felt that same spirit, and it was even stronger then usual (I think it is really trying to tell me something).

I don't know what everyone else learned about in relief society, but in our lesson we went over Sister Julie Becks talk on "Mothers Who Know". I have heard this talk, and read it a few different times, but today knew things stood out to me as we were talking about it as a class. The first point that the teacher brought up was the 2,000 stripling warriors, which is how Sister Beck starts out her talk. In the scripture Alma 56:48 these young men paid tribute to their mothers stating, "We do not doubt our mothers knew it." The different angle that I was thinking about is linking fear and doubt together. It is a little bit difficult for me to explain but I will do my best. One of my biggest fears right now is public schools. I know that an obvious solution to this problem would be home schooling, however, I do not think that homeschooling would be for Eric or me for that matter. When I was thinking about the mothers of the 2,000 stripling warriors I wondered if they would have feared public school as well, and the conclusion that I came to was, no they would not have. The stripling warriors fought a physical battle, and their mothers watched them leave with faith that the Lord would protect them. Our children will be fighting a spiritual battle, which can be even more dangerous then physical battles. I need to be more like those mothers who did not doubt. I need to have faith that as long as I am teaching my children in our home the principles and doctrines of the gospel I need to have faith and get rid of the doubt and fear. I need to believe that the Lord will protect them if I am doing what I am supposed to be doing as their mother that knows. Fear and doubt come from Satan and I need to replace it with faith, which is the opposite of fear.

I really wanted to remember what I was thinking that is why I wrote it down. I am so grateful for a Heavenly Father that loves me so much. I know that I am a daughter of God and that means so much to me. A sister in the relief society today said that, "self esteem is really knowing that you are a child of God." I love this because I can still remember when I did not have any self esteem at all. I now personally know that my Heavenly Father knows me and loves me as well as all of his children.